“I lost my virginity in a rape,” Lovato said. “I called that person back a month later and tried to make it right by being in control and all it did was make me feel worse.”
While speaking more about the incident, she said, “I really beat myself up for years — which is also why I had a really hard time coming to terms with the fact that it was a rape when it happened. We were hooking up but I said, ‘Hey, this is not going any farther, I’m a virgin, and I don’t want to lose it this way.’ And that didn’t matter to them, they did it anyways. And I internalized it and I told myself it was my fault because I still went in the room with him. I still hooked up with him.”
The singer was part of a Disney crowd who pledged to wait to have sex until marriage and wore purity rings, including the Jonas Brothers. Lovato said the incident and having to see her alleged rapist frequently resulted in an eating disorder and cutting herself. She decided to finally come forward in an effort to encourage others to share their traumas and learn that it wasn’t their fault.
“I’m coming forward about what happened to me because everyone that happens to should absolutely speak their voice if they can and feel comfortable doing so,” Lovato said. “Women are typically more repressed than men, especially at 15 years old, and especially as a little child star role model who’s supposed to be perfect, who had a promise ring! So what — I’m supposed to come out to the public after saying I have a promise ring? Six months later, I’m supposed to say, well I had sex — even though it was rape! Some people aren’t going to see it that way.
Demi Lovato also revealed that she was sexually assaulted during her 2018 drug overdose, stating, “I didn’t just overdose. I was taken advantage of. When they found me, I was naked, blue. I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me.”
Also in the documentary, Lovato said that she is no longer sober, but is using substances in moderation in a supervised setting. She also rejected her bipolar disorder diagnosis and said she is “too queer to marry a man in my life right now” after breaking off her engagement to Max Ehrich last year.